Antiode to the Heart
My own is the telegraph of another’s
will, the living text of foreign desire,
copying news only ever copied
imperfectly, original to no one,
but given again a palled night long past.
I am suspicious of the thing. It works
in me, not by request, my ruling rhythm
always to a beat I can’t subdue.
I can’t stop it, I can’t make it louder,
can’t teach it to love you if it won’t —
this pulsing mass, unwanted Quasimodo
abandoned on the doorsteps of ourselves.
Let it die. What’s shared in our silences
can be refined in our figuring — try
any new star, for example: traces
of dust in space, intending of themselves
to be apart, find in their shared disdain
a trust, and, pressing close, begin to burn.
We’re born of what is made within this rending.
It isn’t love that is unending.